Hello. Bonjour. Hola. Hallo. Whatever.
Today I feel blah. I'm in the missing stage I think. And yes, I just created that stage right now. I'll start with explaining the picture though. I drew it today by closing my eyes and drawing what I saw. If anyone wants to take a stab at what it might [possibly] mean, go for it. I personally have no clue. And the lyrics I chose (middle-left) are pretty much a code aswell. Good luck.
Anyway, the missing stage:
I would descibe where I am as the missing stage because it's now where you start to think "I love this room, but I miss my room" or "I love this dog, but I miss my dog" and here's the kicker "I love this family, but I miss my family". So it kinda sucks. Of course, nothing is wrong, except that maybe my rat died and I found out yesterday, and everyone (including me, I'll admit) acts the same. I put my brave face on all day. Last night I cried. A mixture of complicated things. I think my brave face is going to kill me, it's stretched to it's max. I am counting down the days 'till I get home, I'm ashamed to admit. I miss everyone.
Love Emma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
10 comments:
Hey, We miss you too. Can't wait tell you get home. Once again sorry about Ice Cream. The muddy pictures were very funny-you guys seem to like doing alot of jumping. The jumping pictures are great they look so energetic. Once again I do not know the lyrics, sorry. The picture looks....interesting:P It looks beautiful, but your right-so far I havn't been able to decifer a thing.
Miss you lots, Sara
Oh Lou-Lou,
I know that face you described, and it makes me sad to think about. Tomorrow will be better!! My advice: share the sadness with those you feel the closest to in France (and the rest of us by email).
2 weeks is too long to be counting the days. Get neutral, enjoy the small stuff, and call home if you want to chat.
I love you lots!!
Love Mom
Oh Emma. I love you so much, and I know you so well, that I know exactly what you mean when you say "I put my brave face on all day". I know that face; I have seen you wear it. It is a face of pain, yes -- but it is also a face of self-control, a face of strength. Don't be ashamed that you count the days -- be glad that the community to which you long to return is longing to welcome you back. Enjoy, as best you can, the days that remain to you in France. And be proud of what you have accomplished: only the wisest, most open, most passionate souls can feel the truth of both halves of the statement, "I love this x, but I miss my x".
You will be fine. Actually, you'll be more than fine: you'll be superb.
Love, Dad
You are listening to Mika too!!! Wow, I know this one. Relax, take it easy by Mika - can I get double points because I am the fourth post and the first to get it right???
I love you tons, keep on rocking the brave face (a wise teacher once told me that the people who are the smartest are the people who fake being smart rather than those who actually are smart but lazy, same principle with the brave face, YOU ARE BRAVE and I wish that everything could magically be better but from experience I know it does not. I wish you the best of luck in the last two weeks, not long now and now for a serious questions....are you in charge of the box of chocolates for the family or am I????
grosbis,
Jane <3
Hi Emma,
I don't know the lyrics, but I am not surprized.Are you?! So where are you planning to go in the next 2 weeks? Do you have any last bits of shopping for you or family? You have been to so many places with your France family. Soon you will be home and lying in your bed cherishing every moment and event you had in France. So enjoy every minute you have left. You have so more memories to make. You are wonderful.
Love
Auntie Sue
Dear Emma Lou McAllister (did that make you smile?...I don't even remember when I started calling you that! Did it have 2 "L's" ???).
Ahhh the final stretch. That can feel the hardest. You are such a dear special young woman (although your legs can be quite muddy but I will not hold poor hygiene against you).
What you have accomplished in your personal development by the positive approach you have had all these weeks living in France will stay deep within you forever, a kind of personal reservoir of stregth from which you will draw upon at various times of your life.
Hhhhmmm song lyrics are penetrating my thoughts:
"When the day is long and the nights are yours alone...hold on...hold on..."
I am so very proud of your exciting (and brave) accomplishments. I am sorry that your dear pet won't be there when you get home. It is not fair when life double dumps.
Keep on jumping and leg painting.
Gros Bisous
TL
PS If you chose songs from the 70's and 80's I might have a shot at your music game!!!
Hi Emma,
I'm truly sorry to hear about the death of Ice Cream. It's probably harder to deal with because you're so far away from it all. I bet he/she had a great life as your pet and that's what you should focus on: what a wonderful life Ice Cream had because of your kindness and devotion.
I'm going to give the mystery drawing a crack. Here goes: I think these are your compressed thoughts all squeezed into a square shape and tangled together in confusion. However, at the periphery are happy, sunny images and they beckon you. Your thoughts are trying to disentangle themselves and reach to the outside where the happy images dwell. Life is like that sometimes...confusion followed by tranquility and understanding. Wow! I think I missed my calling. I could have been Freud's assistant!!
I won't have a chance to read your blogs for the next while because we leave for Tokyo tomorrow morning and will stay 2 weeks. Pappy has meetings the first 5 days and afterwards we will travel to Kyoto and beyond. We have already secured a Japan rail pass so we can see as much of the country as possible.
So Emma-Lou, enjoy the rest of your time in France and I'll see you on May 24 when I fly to Toronto. I can hardly wait to hear all of your stories of your adventures and misadventures.
Bisous,
Granny
Cou cou Emma.
Well, it's going to be hard to top Granny's profound interpretive email, so I won't even try. Anyways, sorry to hear about Ice Cream, ca craint beaucoup, especially when you're far away. Anyway, you have had such a rich experience in France so far, and there is no shame in feeling like counting down the days. We all look forward to seeing you - very soon - and I hope hope hope that you can enjoy all the good things in France and in the Lancesseur family when you come home.
Gros bisous,
Marnie
you owe your dedicated blogwatchers ATLEAST one more blog before you go home lulugavotte!!!
<3 SO EXCITED, see you in two!!
...especially since your mood has lifted so drastically and all we are left with is this depressed Emma. Seriously, think about all the random people who find this on a google search site and sit down to read it. Are you going to leave them with an unhappy ending???
Ciao, bisous, all that jazz,
Enjoy your last night with the Lancesseurs who are coming in AUGUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST!!!
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